Many of our readers will be familiar with the youtube channel JW Awake. Run by activist Sean McGee AKA Cappytan (who has previously written for JW Survey) and Trace Gallagher AKA unrepentantjw, the youtube channel in its own words contains “a variety of videos including satire, leaks and commentary on all things JW.”
They also run the website jwawake.com which tracks the many, many changes in Watchtower doctrine throughout the years, making a point to only use Watchtower publications to do so. No “apostate” material or “worldly” publications are used, and therefore the site is 100% safe for active Witnesses to read.
In the last few days, Sean has posted a new video to the channel. Taking a somewhat different track from the other videos on the JW Awake channel, this is a personal piece to camera in which Sean speaks frankly and openly about the moments where his JW faith was crumbling around him. He relates how for the first time he found himself facing a world where he didn’t have all the answers. He speaks about how this situation led to him to the darkest and most desperate of places, but how by seeking out professional help, he was able get through this painful period. Lastly, he speaks of the happiness he has found outside of the Watchtower religion.
I spoke to Sean about the video, and he told me that he’d made it in response to a post he’d read on the Ex-JW reddit forum. In that post, a person in the process of leaving the Witness religion, and being shunned for doing so, was speaking of their deep depression and of a desire to end their own life. Thus, Sean made this video largely for him (in addition to some other help he was able to give) to show him that he was not alone in feeling what he did, and that there was a path out of the darkness.
It’s an extremely moving and honest video, and serves as a reminder to all doubting and conflicted Jehovah’s Witnesses that there is life beyond the organisation; a full, rich, meaningful life where you are free to walk the roads you wish to walk, and not be forced down a path arbitrarily decided for you by seven men in Brooklyn who like to run away from journalists with questions.
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